utk abang,

yayah oweys doakan utk abg.

abg have to be strong kayh.

we miss you.

aliyah

"GRIEVING"

you

the truth is,

i don't want to see you cry

bcoz you deserve to live happily

the truth is,

jealousy controlling myself

the truth is,

i really hate myself by loving you

but

the truth is,

i am alrealdy give up

dear women

Dear aunty,
First thing, I want to apologize.
I’m sure she'd told you everything.
Every single thing.
To be honest, I really missed all the moments with her.
She’s everything to me.
But I believed, she deserved someone better than me.
As long as I know she’s happy with her choice, I’m happy for her.

For me, she is the best girl I ever had.
But, she has her own reason for what she had decided.
I’m sorry.

To my dear Faz,
I’m sorry. Every decision that had been made is for our goodness.
And every mistake, I’m sure one day you’ll give forgiveness.

Hard.
I know it’s hard for you and for me, but there’s the only way for us to reach our own happiness. Trust me; you’ll remain my friend forever.
My best friend ever.

feedback!

after arrived in Ho Chi Minh city,komander da ready dpn gate.
i just smiled.he looked at me.stared.looks like i've killed his wife.
he knew that i'd been in one week nightmare.he knew that i'm not really in good condition.what i mean is "hometown".

he is my best buddies.he knew lots but not all.he sent me a good news after i entered my room.
i've got new uniform and i've done with my parachute training.i smiled without saying anything.

then he asked me to tell the truth.is it all about army lives or personal.we had a long talk that night.

why do we hurt the most,the ones we love the most?
sincerely,i want you to give a feedback. this only can be answered by you.you,the one and only who read this post.

1.this is not a dream.we create,we have it,we hurt and we lost.do you feel what i feel?
-sad.only that.you?

2.if you are in my shoes now,will you feel the same?
-guilty.damnly guilty.you?

3.in my left hand,a lighter.in my right hand,our picture.the last one.will you burn it?
-absolutely no.you?

4.why?
-u know what am i going to answer.

5.did you feel bad now?
-yes.maybe?

my friend,i just been motivated by these questions.i just want to know the truth.i really want to know your feelings.be honest.thats all.

happy birthday

happy birthday to my sayang.

fazz!

my bestfriend forever.

take care

may Allah always be with you.

murah rezeki!

sayang kamu selalu

home again!

salam
pekkhh..lame x update blog ak..setibanye ak di lapangan terbang LCCT jam 7.20 mlm tadi, ak terus landing tak hingat punya. well,bau malaysia! ak rindu.setelah ak mencekik serakus rakus hati,tibe2 aku di datangi satu makhluk kecik yg aku dah lame x cekik.biadap punya adik.x sambut pun kepulangan ak krn katenya ak dah tak sekacak dulu.memilih pulak...lantas ak berbicara dgn die....

1.mengenalpasti sama ada die dah ade pakwe
2.mengatur masa depan
3.pesanan2 yg di tinggalkan selama aku tiada di malaysia

lg bnyk die bgtau,lg tensen utk ak..tp ape tindakan ak?mama pesan kt ak tunaikan semua yg tertunggak before aku fly hari tu.baiklah,yayah suggest kn pd ak supaya seminggu ak di malaysia ni,tunaikan semua...
6 bulan jer pergi,environment changed,people changed n most important thing is the situation will not goin to be the same anymore...hah!aku dpt point2 kt situ dah...ak nampak lebih bnyk happiness skrg..so lepas ni ak akan blk ke vietnam dgn hati gembira.sbb ak tinggalkan die hari tuh dlm keadaan ak sendiri tak mahu alami.
settle...ak akn bgtahu die sndiri how much ak miss die..ak pn akn bgtahu die yg ak sngt happy tgk die sngt happy skrg.alahai penat lah mcm nih...

dan ak sedang melihat perubahan semua aspek...aku akan balik lagi.

tahniah2

CONGRATULATIONS TO MY DEAREST SIS, ALIYAH FOR GETTING 10 A's IN SPM 2008.

GOOD.

malu aku kalah dgn dier.cis kau...

damn bored
nak pulang ke malaysia

sorry

feels like thousand years that i haven't seen your face.
where are you now?
I always pray to Allah, i wanted you by my side again.
but,i don't know why,feels like i'm not good enough for you my dear.

"whatever words I say, I will always love you."

both of us love this song.
remember we sang this song last time?
faz,
forgive me.
i read your mail.
i know its hard being in your shoes.
i can't reply it.
no more words for you my dear.
its only regrets and pain.
i'm hopeless.
forget me.

the tears i've cried

just now i read ur blog.i really want him to be my friend back.
but,what does he meant by giving you dat song?
he's always tryin' to be somebody.to get you of course.
you never knoe.
jealousy.i dare to admit it.
i'm the most stupid person to argue with him.
he is nothin.

dear,
what is the most precious thing in this world that you don't want to loose?
of course something that u really luv rite?
thing.person.moment.

I Love You.
don't you ever trust for second chance?
i'm sorry with all my heart.
i can't be yours.
i'm scared.
i am coward.
the truth is,i want you by my side.
but i don't want to make you cry again.
its killing me to see you cried for thousand times.

like you said,
commitment.
yup.i can't give a commitment.
thousand kilometres had separate us.
eventhough i just one inch from you,i still can lied to you.
it was a year ago.
since you're mine,dont know why,
no other girl can be mine.
we kept our feelings.
we hide from each other.
we lied to ourself.

until when?
its better to be good friend.
3 of us.
so that no one will hurt.
no one will cry again.

abang,tadik angah pecahkan replika bola kace abang!

yang suka mengadu,

aliyah.

Thank You For Lovin' Me

It's hard for me to say the things
I want to say sometimes
There's no one here but you and me
And that broken old street light

Lock the doors
We'll leave the world outside
All I've got to give to you
Are these five words when I

Thank you for loving me
For being my eyes
When I couldn't see
For parting my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me
Thank you for loving me

I never knew I had a dream
Until that dream was you
When I look into your eyes
The sky's a different blue
Cross my heart
I wear no disguise
If I tried, you'd make believe
That you believed my lies
You pick me up when I fall down

You ring the bell before they count me out
If I was drowning you would part the sea
And risk your own life to rescue me

When I couldn't fly
Oh, you gave me wings
You parted my lips
When I couldn't breathe
Thank you for loving me

sorry

i miss you my lady.

can i ask u something?
do you still remember what i've told you?
forget me.forgive me.
give me big forgiveness.

my decision is for our goodness.
please don't take it as my final decision.
my fault to let you go.

and now,i deserve it.
i am damnly missing you.

please,fill your heart with someone that deserve you.
i'm sorry

should I?

thanks to you my dear aliyah.

ak tak ade mase lah!
ak pun tak suka menaip.
unless ak ada benda sngt nak story.

ak online pun dkt main office.
takkan diorg nak tngk ak main blogging mcm prmpuan?

we miss you

to abang,

aliyah had created a space for you. i'm very2 sorry to tell you that i'd already deleted our blog. i hope abang got time to update.now,aliyah more to frienster blogging.

i'm sure that kak fazz will be the number one to visit urs! .:hahaha:.

everyone miss you.

love you,
abah,mama,kak long,angah n me.